From The Visible To Invisible

Going near large bodies of water this past weekend have been sobering in a necessary way that I had not been able to come to on my own this entire week. Is there anything more terrifying yet beautiful as the ocean? Yet even as I stand right in front of it, even as I place my fragile life on the line as to dangle my legs above the dark star-lit ocean my mind could not grasp the mysteries that is of this world I am living on. For example, the waves. Yes, there are waves due to wind and the creatures of the sea moving about. And of course, there are tectonic plates shifting all around the Earth as I write these things. But it does not necessarily explain the fact that it is in sync with not only life under the sea levels but also above it. 

How is every living organism linked unto each other on this solid yet liquid piece of rock that floats in space? With something so articulately moving about in regards to the world and its workings, humans bring the question of "why"? There is purpose in everything. Even an old hammer was created by men to serve a purpose, and with just a few pieces that item was intelligently designed! Water filtration systems are arduously processable and intricately thought out products of human intelligence.. Yet with innumerable nerves in even just the human eye, how much more of an intelligent designer should there be?

"For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, 

visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or 

rulers or authorities-all things were created through him and for him. 

And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together."

Colossians 1:16-17

His Works and His Promises

Praise the Lord!

I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart,

in the company of the upright, in the congregation.

Great are the works of the Lord, studied by all who delight in them.

Full of splendor and majesty is his work, and his righteousness endures forever.

He has caused his wondrous works to be remembered;

the Lord is gracious and merciful.

He provides food for those who fear him; he remembers his covenant forever.

He has shown his people the power of his works, in giving them the inheritance of the nations.

The works of his hands are faithful and just; all his precepts are trustworthy;

they are established forever and ever, to be performed with faithfulness and uprightness.

He sent redemption to his people; he has commanded his covenant forever.

Holy and awesome is his name!

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom;

all those who practice it have a good understanding.

His praise endures forever!

Psalm 111

Exhaustion

"Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up."

James 4:10

Lately, the concept of salvation and Christianity as a whole has gotten a battle going on in my mind. It's as if something is at war with another and honestly it's exhausting. My mind is running continually, especially in regards to my past sins. All of them slowly coming up one by one as if there's a whole line of them taking turns to beat my soul to a pulp. And as of late, I really just needed a break, a time-out if you must call it. Which was of course a huge mistake since now it's more like I'm being defeated and I don't even know it. I don't know what to do anymore. Doing something or nothing has been exhausting either way. I desire to be won by Christ, through Christ, in all of this. May this on-going struggling come to a God glorifying victory in Him where I may lay on His bosom at peace. May my wretched soul be crushed so that from the dust of my past, Christ may reign in my future forevermore...