"I will bless her, and moreover, I will give you a son by her. I will bless her,
and she shall become nations; kings of peoples shall come from her.”
Then Abraham fell on his face and laughed and said to himself,
“Shall a child be born to a man who is a hundred years old?
Shall Sarah, who is ninety years old, bear a child?”
And Abraham said to God, “Oh that Ishmael might live before you!”
God said, “No, but Sarah your wife shall bear you a son,
and you shall call his name Isaac. I will establish my covenant with him
as an everlasting covenant for his offspring after him."
Genesis 17:16-19
The days are warmer and the mind heavier. My heart has lightened with it's burdens and I hope to God that it is His doing rather than my own selfishly prideful deceptions that are muddling the mind. A lot has been going on and I wonder why I am still, I trust the Lord has His ways of doing all things including my breaths that are breathed.. yet I am curious as to why I see it all unfolding and am perplexed why I lack further fear of it all. My mind races with sinful thoughts and doubts of God's love for wicked sinners such as myself and I know not how to put the breaks on them. I long for rest and seek His face weakly and feebly as it is a tiresome moment in my life.. Even so.. I'm so grateful for the revelations He has granted me and the peace He allows me to have even now. Grateful for those who remain and for those who have yet to return to Him.
Even with this chapter of seeing God declaring His love for Abraham and the grand promises He gives to him shows how much God truly does care for His children. Along with Abraham still being a finite human requesting the Lord to use just the bit that was allowed in his life shows how doubtful we all can be at times even with the visible grace God grants in our lives..
My own thoughts tend to go towards that thought process as well.. just like Abraham saying "what I see right now is enough" and God promises invisible things, a hope for the future and a hope for the eternity that is to come. Yet, it costs so much. It costs absolutely nothing yet everything to follow what He desires for us. The chapter ends with Abraham and the men of the whole of his clan to be circumcised and it's a brutal and painful process I'm sure, yet what is the pain of the present compared to the glory that is to come? That is the question we all have to ask ourselves continually isn't it. Is the exchange worth it, and do you have faith in that exchange?
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